Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I cannot believe it's New Year already

this year has been a roller coaster of emotions and new experiences that have shaken me to the core sometimes.i've cried more this year than probably ever in my life,and yet,all of it wasn't father passing away has made me grow up a lot this year,leading to me and my boyfriend moving in,anyone who knows my boyfriend,will know that him moving in with me is a miracle.he is a real mama's boy,although he will always deny that very strongly.but suffice it to say,he had a very comfortable life living at home,with everything being done for him like a little kid.he turned 30 this year for goodness sake!it was time he made a move.

as for me,i moved out of home for the first time in my life,at the age of 25,in march was quite tough,and i realised quickly that me living completely on my own,wasn't going to be a success,ever.i become completely depressed and even though i love the independence,i've seen that i prefer living with at least one other person,just so that when the loneliness and blues are about to get too much,there will almost always be someone that i can just sit and relax with.because really,that's mostly all i need to make me feel drug can take away my sadness.only good company.

i gained 3 cats this year,and basically lost 2 of them ran away,he was the one i sort of 'inherited' along with my old apartment.he was the most lovable,amazing black cat you've ever seen,but after my apartment got flooded in july,and i had to move back in with my mother,he ran away,because he couldn't handle living with another fully grown female cat,as well as 3 dogs.also my best friends' cat had kittens,and she gave me the littlest my eldest female cat,and the little one i got from my best friend,are now living with my mother at her house,because they both grew up there,and i just feel that if i took them away with me,and made them live in a small apartment,they would either act up very badly,or run away.and i don't want to take any chances like i just buy them a months' supply of food at the beginning of every month,and they live with my mom.

my boyfriend got this new little one 2 weeks ago.although i didn't really put up much of a fight about keeping can i say?i love cats,and feel sorry for any cat having to live on the street.

anyway,i've gotten sidetracked by the cats,but like i said in the beginning,every year flies by faster and mom always says that the older you get,the faster time goes by.and i truly feel that is completely true.

i'm just thankful we all survived this year,and that we are not still in exactly the same situations we were in last year this time.some things have changed for the better,some for worse,but although i like things to stay the same all the time,i also understand that for life to be worth living,things have to change and evolve.i just hope and pray that 2009 will be a peaceful,interesting and fun year.i don't need another nail-biter like 2008!

our new little one

finally i got some pics taken of our new 'baby', maya.she's quite active now,so she won't stay still long enough for me to take a really nice picture of her,so these will have to do for now.
love,love,love her pretty blue eyes!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Tomorrow - Europe

this band is really only known for the song "the final countdown", which is actually quite a shame,because no one listens further to discover this beautiful little gem of a song "tomorrow".

this song is kind of my bofriend and my official couple song,and it is truly yourself a favor and look it are the lyrics.short,but sweet:

Will you be there beside me
If the world falls apart
And will all of our moments
Remain in your heart

Will you be there to guide me
All the way through,
I wonder will you

Walk by my side, and follow my dreams
And bear with my pride, as strong as it seems
Will you be there tomorrow

Will you be there beside me
As time goes on by
And be there to hold me
Whenever I cry
Will you be there to guide me
All the way through,
I wonder will you

Walk by my side, and follow my dreams...
And bear with my pride, as strong as it seems
Will you be there tomorrow
oh will you be there
oh will you be there


Braai with the "In-laws"

my boyfriend and i had a braai with his family again last's the 4 night in the last week we've eaten at their place,and not just any food.proper braai/bbq/holiday food.

last night we had ribs,sausages,bbq bread,pap and tomato and onion sauce. the pap and sauce is a south african traditional food,often served with bbq is heavenly,especially when my boyfriends' mother makes it.she just has a way with it.i've tried making it myself,and it didn't come out so bad,but just didn't taste anything like hers.i swear she has some sort of special ingredient she doesn't tell me about.

i must say that i am very lucky that my boyfriends' family is such a lively bunch.they are very easy to get along with,and i've had no real problems fitting in with them.hopefully it stays that way.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Getting to know me

i totally stole this quiz from another blog,but i like filling these in,and it's a good way to tell you what i'm like,without giving too much away ;-)

so here goes:

1. Who did you last get angry with? My boyfriend
2. What is your weapon of choice? Sarcasm
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yes
4. How about of the same sex? Yes
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? My sister
6. What is your pet peeve? People who promise things,but never stick with their promises
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I can forgive,but not forget

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you don't? Exercise,but i never do
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? Probably at about 1 pm
3. What is the last lame excuse you made? I didn't want to go swimming with my sister,so i said i was making lunch
4. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? Yes,too many times
5. When was the last time you got in a good workout? About 2 years ago probably.LOL
6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? Once

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Don't have one
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? I prefer my meat white,but won't discriminate when I'm hungry enough
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? Half a bottle of brandy and 5 glasses of rosé wine
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Yes
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Always
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy? First something sweet,then something salty
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought "lunch"? NO!

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? About 13
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? About 7
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of the opposite gender during a normal conversation? Yes
4. Have you ever kissed two people in one night? No
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? A man's hands
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No

1. How many credit cards do you own? None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Paperweight Bookstore
3. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Definitely rich
4. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Probably yes
5. Have you ever stolen anything? Yes
6. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? Not many.About 10

1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? Finished high school
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Not gone to jail
3. What things would you like to accomplish in your life? Do my work very well,buy a home and raise a few kids.Very plain and simple,that's what I want
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? No,depends on what the competition is
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? No
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Yes
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? Actually posted on my blog.I am usually too lazy to do it

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? My friends' house
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Angelina Jolie
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Angelina Jolie
4. Have you ever been cheated on? No
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Yes, different skin
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Lots of willpower

Feeling sad

i know i was very happy and optimistic a few days ago,but all of a sudden things are starting to feel not so nice again.

don't know where it always comes from,but i just got a call from another freaking creditor looking for my i suppose that has something to do with my blues.

look,i love my boyfriend to death.and will always,but he has absolutely no money-skills,and makes debt everywhere he goes,because he lives under this illusion that tomorrow will take care of eventually i end up being the one who stresses about getting his debts paid,before he gets into some kind of trouble.

and i have to say,i am pretty tired of it.i stress really easily,and about even the smallest things,so all of these money problems are making me feel like i want to crawl into the fetal position and just cry and never stop crying.

hopefully tomorrow will look better.i hate feeling like this.

Now that's my kind of bush

just check out this very interestingly shaped bougainvillea bush my brother (whose a landscaper) took a picture of a while ago.

kind of makes me want to blush when i look at it.

Lovely Rain!

this is what it looked like outside my office at lunch time.i sure hope it stays this way for the rest of the's not really cold or anything,but it's cool enough to make sure you can exist comfortably without feeling you're going to die of a heatstroke.

update:bummer,the sun is already making a big comeback,and it's only an hour later :-(

No Money

i don't want to sound like a complete downer,but i just sometimes wish a miracle would happen,so that just for one month,i will have enough money to pay everything i have to pay,and still have a little left over to treat my pets or my boyfriend,or even myself.

there just never is any money left after the monthly debts are paid and groceries are bought.and mind you,they aren't extravagant groceries.just the normal things like bread,eggs,some mince meat,etc.the normal everyday things.we don't buy stuff like steaks or weird cheeses or stuff like that.there just isn't money for that.

here's hoping i can somehow work out a budget and actually stick to it.i want our debt paid off in 2 years' seems like a disastrously long time from now,but like i've seen with 2008,the time flies by,so if i can have all our debt paid off in 2 years,that would be a complete miracle!


to be honest with you,i don't really get twitter at all.i'm just not popular enough to have anyone follow my twitter,and i also don't have very much to say.even my meaningless little thoughts sound boring in comparison to other peoples' meaningless thoughts.

in case you might want to check out my twitter,feel welcome would make me feel loved.something i'm always looking to feel.

Monday LOL cats

Christmas is Over

wow,can't believe that christmas is already over again.all that anticipation,and looking forward to some down-time,and's over.

so here's a basic roundup of what i did on my 4 days off:

wednesday evening my bf and i went to a bbq at his parents' house.we had a fish braai.not my favorite,but my baby did it so well,even i enjoyed the fish.afterwards i was designated as,and got to hand out all the presents.i even got 2 presents (some very nice wine glasses,so i can look classy when i drink my cheap wine.and lovely smelling body lotion,shower gel and even a bottle of perfume.that made me feel extra bad about not getting anyone else presents.)

on thursday (christmas day) we all went to church,where i naturally bawled through half of the service,missing my dad.luckily after church the sadness was gone.we had a great meal of everything you can think of,and after lunch,my bf and i went home to just relax and watch a movie.i didn't last long before falling into bed and just sleeping.all in all,a very good day.

friday,was not so fact,it was very bf and i had a fight and ended up being completely mad at each other the whole day.i got so mad,i went to my sisters' and got blindingly drunk.we went for a swim,afte which i don't remember much.i went to bed at like 6pm on friday afternoon.and basically slept through to saturday.

on saturday morning i was feeling horrified about the drunkenness of the previous day,and dreading what my bf was going to say,but he ended up not being mad at me about the things i said,and he said that he understood that i had some cropped up emotions and after all i had to drink,the beer tears were bound to start flowing.saturday night we had a braai for his dad's 50th birthday.the food was great,but after being in constant company with other people for 3 straight days,i was ready to just be on my own,and when we got home afterward,i just sort of fell into bed.but not before my bf gave me the cutest "drumming" show,set to the sounds of bon jovi and def leppard.very cute!

sunday was just laid back and lazy.there was nothing else to do but watch some tv and play with the kitty.she is getting very playful now and is turning into a little terror.but she is gorgeous,so i don't really mind.

all in all,the four days were very nice,with the exception of friday,but i wouldn't have done them any different.and i just got some good news this morning.we not only have new years' day off,we also get off early on the 31st,and we have jan 2 off as well!YAY!!!and i get my salary on the 31st as well,although my budget is extremely tight,but i will try to skim off some money for a good time for new years.can't wait!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Thinking of my Dad

i am very sad again today,just thinking of my dad,and missing him so's been a year now,and honestly,most of the time i kind of block out the fact that he's gone,but then suddenly,out of nowhere,the reality hits me and i just want to cry the whole time.that's what i've been like since yesterday.

my brother was borrowing my dads' truck,and on monday they brought it back home.when they stopped at a petrol station,my nephew (who is 5),told the attendant that they were taking his grandpa's truck back home,but that his grandpa wasn't there,because he is in heaven with God.

doesn't that just break your heart?

R.I.P Dad

Merry Christmas!

it's nearly christmas,and i am going to be on a break,coming back to work on i hope everyone has a peaceful,happy and restful christmas,without any drama.and i hope everyone who can spend time with their loved ones,does,because times like these are very few and far between,and very precious.


i'm starting today off with a few pics from the cutie cats,because although it's nearly christmas,i'm not at all feeling very festive,and am missing my dad very maybe a little laughter will make me (and someone else out there) feel a little better.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

the amazing SLINKY CAT!

i wonder how people realise their pets can do stuff like this?

it is freaking adorable...why don't any of my cats do cute stuff like this?

lol cats

i really love cats.i have 3 of my own,and if i could,i'd have plenty more.

so it should come as no surprise that i am addicted to lol cats pictures.some are crappy,and some are just plain brilliant.

so,i thought,to give my blog a bit of a kitty flavour,i'm going to be posting some lol cats pictures every now and then,just because iz can!


Season 4 Finale of The Hills

so,this was the last episode of season's quite a fitting end to the worst season of the show thus far.this whole season was just plain boring,and with no real interesting storylines,just recaps of old fights and arguments.

heidi just kept looking more and more like a plastic blow up doll and lauren just kept acting more and more superior and like an la princess as the series progressed.

i sure hope that the next season (and there better be a next season) will be much improved.

ps.i still really like audrina!


a few pics of my favorite 'the hills' starlet.she's cute,down2earth and has the glossiest hair i've ever seen on a human.maybe on racehorses.but definitely the first time on a human.

see?this is me at the moment

Had a great night!

after work last night,i went to my mothers' house to do our laundry,and ended up doing most of it,but not all,since the weather is a bit cooler now,and there wasn't really space to hang everything up.

after i finished there,i set off home,thinking i was going to go home and make a soy cottage pie for me and my boyfriend,but it was not to be.when i got there,his sister was there,having a drink with i poured myself a drink as well,and after about an hour,my sister pitched as well,so we all had a drink together and had a really good sister was complaining about her man-troubles,so i felt really bad letting her go home alone,but she wouldn't stay over,so what could i do?

at about 9,everyone was gone,and it was finally just me and the be honest,i really wasn't in the mood to make dinner at 9pm,so i was really happy when my bf suggested we go get a pizza at the restaurant that is like 5 minutes' walk from our apartment.

we had another drink at the restaurant,while waiting for our take away pizza,and talked about stuff we did in high school and just laughing at what we both were like back then.

the pizza was incredible!i haven't had a pizza from that restaurant in a long time,so it was really nice to taste it again.unfortunately,it makes me hungrier today,because i ate so late last night,and such a big meal as well.

but like i said,i had a really good bf is in a very good mood (probably has something to do with him being on vacation),so everything's good!

maru - the adorable cat

this is the freakin' cutest cat i've seen in a long time!he seems to have such an adorable personality,and i have always had a love for big,tubby just wana pick him up and cuddle him all the time.

also,he has a fetish for sliding into boxes,of all sizes.and this makes for very funny viewing.

here is his very own blog:

Monday, December 22, 2008


out of absolutely nowhere,at 2pm this afternoon,it started raining!my prayers have been's not raining very heavily,but steadily.i sure hope it keeps going like this.i love rainy weather.makes for lovely cuddling between me and the boyfriend.LOL.

only problem is,i have a bunch of laundry to do,and no place to hang it inside,so i'll have to figure out a way to get the clothes dry.but oh well,i would rather walk around looking at the rain than wash laundry would swear i've never seen water falling out of the sky.pathetic.

the weather this week

i am so hoping that this week will be a bit cooler than the previous two weeks.we all know that the weather starts to get really hot around december time,but the last couple of years we've been lucky,and have had quite comfortable weather up until january,guaranteeing us a nice christmas.

well,this year the ozone has decided we should start suffering from the start of's been really hot,with temperatures daily going over 40 degrees gets to be unbearable after a while.and we still have about 5 months of this to look forward to.yay!

but last night,the weather forecast seemed to be in my favour for a showed that the weather for this christmas-week would not go higher than the early 30's.which in other circumstance would be very hot,but right now,is downright cool.

i sure hope those weatherpeople didn't make a mistake,i don't wana have to go mental on their asses about a silly thing as an erroneous weather forecast.

Friday, December 19, 2008

new kitten

a stray cat had 4 kittens in the roof of our apartment "complex",about a week before we moved in.and we've been living there for 3 weeks now,so on wednesday,one of the kittens,a very small black kitten,with blue eyes,became me and my boyfriends' first joint pet.

it's kind of a secret,because i also have 2 cats that live with my mom,and she will kill me if she finds out i got another cat.i can't help it,i love having a pet in the house,especially a cat.

the reason my other 2 girls are living with my mom,is because they are used to living in a nice big house,with a huge garden where they can play and roam around as they please.i just couldn't get it over my heart to take them away and force them to live indoors in a small flat.this new little one will be used to this flat,because she is going to grow up here,but my other 2 would be best suited staying where they are.

the only problem is,i have to still feed them,or at least pay for their food.which is quite a lot of money,seeing as they eat quite a large amount of food each month.but i don't mind doing it,seeing as my mom is doing me a huge favour by looking after them.although,i think they actually prefer living with her.they don't want me picking them up,or petting them,but they sleep by her feet every night and follow her like lovesick teenagers.they truly love my mom much more than they do me.traitors.

being bored

it is soooo horrible to be bored.i am sitting here at work,and honestly,i have absolutely nothing to do.nothing work-related anyway.i feel so guilty for being at work,like 9 hours a day,5 days a week,and barely feeling like i do anything worthwhile.

basically,my workday consists of maybe 20 % actual work,and 80 % internet surfing and reading celeb gossip sites.i use up my boss' internet he buys each month,and he probably doesn't even suspect anything.

i am getting really irritated with having nothing to do!!!!!!!!!!!!

weekend plans

i was hoping to just sit at home all weekend and do absolutely nothing.i've had a bad week,with lots of people irritating me and just plain bugging me the whole time.and also the weather is really hot,so you can't actually go outside much to do something,well i can't,because i'll burn myself to a crisp.

but no,alas,it is not to boyfriend wants to go to his parents' house tomorrow night for dinner.and i know what dinner with them entails.lots of drinking and smoking,and i'm so broke right now,that i don't want to go out to any place where money has to be spent.i just want to stay in bed and relax.not even shower or anything.sounds gross,but when i'm in the mood that i'm in right now,even cleaning myself seems like a lot of work.

not only are we going to dinner tomorrow night,but on sunday,his sister is coming to visit for the day,and we're going to watch some new movies she just's ok,i guess,but again,i didn't really even want to get out of bed at this whole change of weekend plans is completely bumming me out.

i like the hills

this blog won't be just all about my sometimes-depressing outlook on life,i want to obviously talk about things that i enjoy,and like as well.

right now,i really like 'the hills'.i got into the show from the very beginning,and since i don't watch other soapies,this is my guilty tv pleasure.i watch it every week,just to see how stupid some of the characters can be,and to ogle at how great the girls' make up and hair is looking.

my favorite character,is Audrina.she is just so cute and is one of the only ones that doesn't irritate me to the point where i want to pull my eyelashes over my eyes and superglue them shut.i love Whitney as well,and my favorite baddie is definitely Lo.she is such a lovely super bitch,and that makes for fun viewing.

even though heidi and spencer suck,the one character that is just beyond irritating,is stephanie.she really has no purpose,and cannot even say the few lines that she gets paid to say,in a convincing way.nothing she says,or any of her facial expressions,make any sense at all.

for any of you who also love 'the hills',do yourself a favor,and go over to this site:


this guy is funny as hell,and does the absolute best commentary on the show.i look forward to seeing his comments,almost as much as i look forward to seeing the show.

next week is the finale,and then i guess i will have to watch 'the city' to get my 'reality' fix,although it won't be the same without 'Oddrina'.LOL

trying to start blogging to give me something to do

i've been trying to start a blog for nearly a year now.i'm always either too busy or too lazy to actually start doing it.and then there's the fact that i don't really know what i want to blog about.because i don't want to put things on here that are too personal,because i like keeping personal things to myself.but then again,i would love to get all my feelings and thoughts out,so that they don't fester in my mind,and make me completely crazy.

so i guess i just won't name any names or places,but will talk about my daily experiences and thoughts and likes and might be a bit boring,but i just feel like i need a bit of a project to occupy myself.i get bored quite easily these days.

when i was younger,i could just sit around and watch tv or read a book,and that would be enough to keep me busy for hours.i didn't need someone around me,and actually preferred being alone most of the time.but after my fathers' death last year,that kind of changed.i've noticed that i constantly want company,someone to talk to,to touch whenever i want.and i am always looking for ways to not be alone.

i just moved in with my boyfriend,which is a huge step for us,and i sometimes wonder if i did it because i really want to live with him,or just that i don't want to live alone.but i must say,it's been going very well,and whereas before i would be very needy in our relationship,always getting upset when i couldn't get to see him,now that we live together,and i see him every night,i am much calmer and not as bitchy as before.which is a major improvement.

so hopefully i did it for the right reasons.

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