You know when someone hurts you so badly,by the words they say to you,that you feel like nothing can ever make you feel better again?Well,I'm feeling like that right now.It would be easier to get over,if the words came from some stranger,who I would not have to see again,making the hurtful words easier to forget.But when it comes from family,someone so close to you that you never ever expected it from,those words go into your heart and brain,and start to fester.

I want to forgive and forget.But as much as I want to do it,I just can't.Maybe some day.Until then I'll act as if everything is normal,and nothing is wrong,because if I don't,more people will get hurt.And I'm not going to be the one to make that happen.

All I've ever wanted is for us all to get along and be nice and fun and happy.Again,maybe someday.

Love and Hisses:The True Blood 6

I've been reading this adorable blog for a while now,and can't wait to see updates on all the foster kittens that go through the foster home.

Now there are 6 very special little kittens,who need help.

Please go here and read more about them - also,if you can,please spread the word.

... too bad I don't know how to ride a bike :(

Life's like this

At least,this is what life feels like a lot of the time.Am I right?

Honesty

The beautifully creative Nicky Jane challenged me to give 10 true facts about myself.

Here goes:

1.I constantly dream about my cat.She features in almost every dream I have.
2.I can't eat something sweet without following it up with something salty.And vice versa.
3.After living with my boyfriend (who stutters) for 9 months,I also stutter a bit now.
4.I love where I'm living,but I would do anything to live somewhere by the sea,and wake up to an ocean view every day.
5.I have a mental block against high heels and never wear them.However pretty they are,all I can think of when looking at them,is falling flat on my face and painful bunions and blisters.
6.I prefer sleeping in mens flannel pyjamas.They may not be very hot and sexy,but they keep me hot,and very comfy.
7.When I cook,I never use recipes.As soon as I use a recipe,the dish is guaranteed to fail.
8.I always wear my socks wrongside out.That little ribbed part at the front of your toes irritates the crap out of me otherwise.
9.After years of longing for a tan skin,I've finally made peace with being deathly pale.My freckles,not so much.
10.I make pizza for dinner at least 6 times a month.Even if it only has banana on it,I make it anyway.

Big D

Adorable,right?

It's no surprise at all

My boyfriend has been obsessing over this song by Daughtry the whole weekend.Unfortunately,even though he really,really loves the song,he basically only remembers about 5 lines from the song,which is 'taking the easy way out'.So I've been basically ear raped with this one line the whole weekend.Fun times.



Also,when I went on Youtube to get the code for 'No Surprise',I happened upon this little accoustic gem - Daughtry doing Pokerface.Don't know about you,but I think it's awesome.Although it kind of creeps me out when guys sing songs that were originally sung by girls,and vice versa.Don't know why,it just does.But I'll make an exception for this.

words to live by

Even though I,as a rational,realistic person,know that life is supposed to evolve and change and I'm supposed to grow with it,and change as well,I kind of wish that just for a little while,like 1 year or so,things would just stay nice and calm,without any new catastrophes to take you by surprise.Just a little while,not forever.

I've always had a huge problem with thinking too much.This,I understand,is not exclusively my problem,and that most women,and quite a lot of men,suffer from this very same affliction.It's not a good thing to suffer from,because when you think too much,you tend to make small,insignificant matters into huge,impossible-to-control thoughts that take over your everyday existence.I believe that I would be a lot happier if I only stepped out of my head,and stopped thinking so much about every little thing,because that's the time when I tend to take every innocent little remark or look,think about it till my face turns blue,and end up making it into something much worse than it was.You know what I mean?

I am guilty of not taking these words to heart,when they are such wise words,they actually make me flinch.We all,no matter how we try to deny it,have a certain idea of what love is,and how it should be experienced or given.But the truth is,that is not always the way love really is,or how it will be for you.And just because the love you have with someone isn't what you always wanted or expected it to be (because of what you've seen in the movies,heard in songs,read in books,observed with your friends),doesn't mean that it is not an amazing,incredible love.We should learn to let go of our preconceived notions of things like love,and just appreciate the way it comes to us.

{I apologise for the ramblings,but these were thoughts that have been mulling around in my brain,and needed to get out}

Hi!

I struck it lucky yesterday.My boss got someone else to fill in for my absent work colleague,and I am therefor back at my post.Which is totally awesome,since I've been having some Internet withdrawal symptoms.

Unfortunately,the past 2 weeks have not been good.Money problems,extra work (another of my colleagues is now only working half day,so I have to fill in the rest of the day,as well as do my own work),and just basically feeling crappy,have all made me realise that I am not at all in the mood to start blogging again.Because,like a lot of other bloggers say,I don't want to be this totally negative,moody,irritating source of reading material.I want to be uplifting and fun,but I really don't feel that way at all.And to be honest,I don't know when I will feel better (maybe when the financial crap is sorted out.

Either way,I have decided to stop blogging,and just enjoy your blogs.Your adventures and often inspiring words help me feel better about myself,and hopefully,sometime very soon,I will feel like doing the same.

I will still comment every now and then (when the new busier work schedule allows) and will definitely keep on enjoying all your amazing blogs!

xoxoxo